Closing in, time is running out.

So, I have 3 1/2 days left in Calapan. How did this happen? We had a batch of amazing births with amazing mothers. Thank you Lord. I am now down to needing 4 births and we have a laboring mom here right now. God is good. I am realizing that a sadness is creeping in to me. It hit me today when I was reading after one of the births and the family bought us dinner from a local fast food place and I was overwhelmed. To understand how much that cost them you would have to think of an outrageous analogy. I have to think that it was one of the best meals of my life. I cried. I know, but anyone who knows me knows that it is only expected of me to cry over this. (haha...) The love and generosity is heart warming. I am so blessed by all of this and I can't believe that it is coming to a close. What an experience I have had with this all. I was thinking how I was feeling when I left to come here. Nervous, not confident and skeptical of myself as a midwife. I feel I am leaving with confidence, experience, a new love for birth, and a change in myself. I was really able to absorb who I am and what I have become. God is good.

On the other side of me leaving, I am so excited to hold Will and Matt and be back with my boys. I love them so much and they are my heroes. I could not have done any of this without the support and love they give me. They propel me to be who I am and to do what I do. I can't wait to share with them all I have done and experienced. I can't wait to here Will tell me everything he has done. He sounds so grown up. He did get a WHOLE year older while I was here. Oh what a reunion that will be. I am so happy now. Happy to be here doing this and happy to go home to my sweet family. A month is actually a long time. I plan to cherish each day I have left here and I know I will cherish always in my heart.

Now, off to another birth. What a lucky girl I am!!