Routine
We are starting to settle into a routine. The only part of this routine I don't like is the 2:30 - 5:00 am wake time. Tobi seems to think that is time for him to be alert and wanting nothing but be held and look around. He doesn't appreciate it when I try to lie him down either. Other than this, which I pray is just a short phase, he is doing well. He is wanting to eat more and alerting me when he is ready for this. I like that he is actually wanting his food and I don't have to wake him for every feed. He is also eating more each time. He is gaining weight and growing. We are still working on getting his darn bili down and that means more visits to the hospital lab waiting room. This part I also don't like. So many sick people I hate bringing Tobi in there just being around them. Hopefully soon we will be done.
I have been doing a bit better too. I have been trying to make sure I am eating and sleeping as much as I can. It is a challenge but I know it helps. I had a rough couple days and today I woke up tired but with a bit more energy. The sun is out and it looks like it is going to be a nice day. Maybe we can head outside for a bit. On Sunday we went out and stopped at a park so Will could play while I fed Tobi. It was so nice to actually be outside. That helps my moods too. I have been trying to focus on telling myself that this will all pass and that I need to focus on Him and not me. That right there in itself makes all the difference in the world. Why is it so hard to remind myself of this? The constant need for His strength and grace is something that humbles me at this time. Well, always, but it is more noticeable now. I am in love with my boys and yet I struggle at times with how hard it is to be mom. There is no room for selfishness when you are mom. It is definitely a sacrifice worth making each day but it is a conscience effort. God is good and I am reminded of this all the time. So, today I will enjoy each moment as they come and love on my boys more and more.
I have been doing a bit better too. I have been trying to make sure I am eating and sleeping as much as I can. It is a challenge but I know it helps. I had a rough couple days and today I woke up tired but with a bit more energy. The sun is out and it looks like it is going to be a nice day. Maybe we can head outside for a bit. On Sunday we went out and stopped at a park so Will could play while I fed Tobi. It was so nice to actually be outside. That helps my moods too. I have been trying to focus on telling myself that this will all pass and that I need to focus on Him and not me. That right there in itself makes all the difference in the world. Why is it so hard to remind myself of this? The constant need for His strength and grace is something that humbles me at this time. Well, always, but it is more noticeable now. I am in love with my boys and yet I struggle at times with how hard it is to be mom. There is no room for selfishness when you are mom. It is definitely a sacrifice worth making each day but it is a conscience effort. God is good and I am reminded of this all the time. So, today I will enjoy each moment as they come and love on my boys more and more.
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