Special Times, is it really 2011?
It is 4:30 am and I should be sleeping but I can't. I have too much on my mind. I take my certification exams a month from now and I am weighing it heavy on my mind. I am trying to take it as it comes and allow what I know to sink deeper into my mind. I just worry that my pregnancy brain will not allow that. haha... I just spoke with my dear mentor who is in the Philippines and was reminded of how blessed I am. She has been such an amazing person in my life and has taught me many great things. Not just midwifery related. She is coming back in a couple weeks to teach a study retreat and I am looking forward to it. My friend Theresa, that I met while in the Philippines, is also coming over and staying with us for the retreat and the test. I am so looking forward to spending time with her and studying together. I have also been spending more time with Rose and Ian preparing for the test. They too have been so, I don't even know what to say. They have walked with me, lead me, and guided me through a great journey. I have grown to love them as family and they will always hold a special place in my heart. I am thankful for the long hours and the times when they pushed me to strive to do my best. The times when they kept me going and challenged me to do more. I am thankful beyond words for the opportunity of the Philippines that I would not have had without, Rose, Ian, and Vicki. And now they get to be my own midwives before they board a plane back to the Philippines where God has set their hearts. I am truly blessed.
It has been fun to walk through all of my midwifery schooling and training with them and to have them all next to me during this pregnancy journey too. I am now feeling this baby move all the time and even now as I type. It makes me have such joy. I am also no longer throwing up each morning and it has been over a week. yeah!! I love all the changes and Matt laughs often because he says that pregnancy doesn't sound all that fun. I had 5 ribs out when I went to the chiropractor yesterday so my back is better and I have been really slow at being able to do anything. But, the great thing is that there are chiropractors and I may be slow but I get things done. I love my changing belly and that I now look pregnant. I love too that Will rubs my belly and asks how big the baby is, or his brother as he says. He is getting excited too. I love that I get to experience it all. I just can't believe it is going so fast. 23 weeks today! It is going to be here before I know it. My friend Dani has also blessed me beyond words by flying in for May so that she can be here to catch my baby. It is such a sweet thing because of all we have gone through as midwives, friends, and sisters. She is an amazing person and an amazing midwife. I am again blessed to have her be here for my birth. I love what God does. I am sad that Rose and Ian will just miss the birth by a couple weeks but God in His goodness had other plans. and... in case I hadn't said, Rose and Dani are sisters so in a way I get them all. I am full. It is funny when I have my mood swings and want to just cry I think, why? I have so much in my life. Then I realize it is just my hormones and I am ok. haha...
It has been fun and at times annoying being a midwife before my first pregnancy. Fun because I get to relate and put knowledge into experience and annoying because I try to find everything that could be going wrong. I pray my midwife brain will turn off and my mommy brain will kick in while I am having this baby. That is another reason I am glad Dani is coming. She is both too, knows me well and will help me through that. But... right now midwife brain needs to kick on and let mommy brain hold out for a bit. At least til after February 16th. haha... Life is in a special place. I have an amazing, loving husband who I appreciate beyond words. He challanges me, frustrates me, guides me and loves me so much. I am so thankful for him. My beautiful Will is growing and exploding with life. He talks nonstop and most of that talking is asking questions with the answer of, "o yah, I already know that" =) He is such my joy. I just don't like how fast he is growing up. He is becoming such a young man already. It is fun to spend so much time with him. And a challenge. =) What more can I say other than that I serve an awesome God who loves me very much and had chosen to send me a time of blessings. This year is going to be quite a year. I will become a CPM (certified professional midwife), have a baby, Matt and I will celebrate our 10th anniversary, and I will turn 30. To name a few things. here we go.
It has been fun to walk through all of my midwifery schooling and training with them and to have them all next to me during this pregnancy journey too. I am now feeling this baby move all the time and even now as I type. It makes me have such joy. I am also no longer throwing up each morning and it has been over a week. yeah!! I love all the changes and Matt laughs often because he says that pregnancy doesn't sound all that fun. I had 5 ribs out when I went to the chiropractor yesterday so my back is better and I have been really slow at being able to do anything. But, the great thing is that there are chiropractors and I may be slow but I get things done. I love my changing belly and that I now look pregnant. I love too that Will rubs my belly and asks how big the baby is, or his brother as he says. He is getting excited too. I love that I get to experience it all. I just can't believe it is going so fast. 23 weeks today! It is going to be here before I know it. My friend Dani has also blessed me beyond words by flying in for May so that she can be here to catch my baby. It is such a sweet thing because of all we have gone through as midwives, friends, and sisters. She is an amazing person and an amazing midwife. I am again blessed to have her be here for my birth. I love what God does. I am sad that Rose and Ian will just miss the birth by a couple weeks but God in His goodness had other plans. and... in case I hadn't said, Rose and Dani are sisters so in a way I get them all. I am full. It is funny when I have my mood swings and want to just cry I think, why? I have so much in my life. Then I realize it is just my hormones and I am ok. haha...
It has been fun and at times annoying being a midwife before my first pregnancy. Fun because I get to relate and put knowledge into experience and annoying because I try to find everything that could be going wrong. I pray my midwife brain will turn off and my mommy brain will kick in while I am having this baby. That is another reason I am glad Dani is coming. She is both too, knows me well and will help me through that. But... right now midwife brain needs to kick on and let mommy brain hold out for a bit. At least til after February 16th. haha... Life is in a special place. I have an amazing, loving husband who I appreciate beyond words. He challanges me, frustrates me, guides me and loves me so much. I am so thankful for him. My beautiful Will is growing and exploding with life. He talks nonstop and most of that talking is asking questions with the answer of, "o yah, I already know that" =) He is such my joy. I just don't like how fast he is growing up. He is becoming such a young man already. It is fun to spend so much time with him. And a challenge. =) What more can I say other than that I serve an awesome God who loves me very much and had chosen to send me a time of blessings. This year is going to be quite a year. I will become a CPM (certified professional midwife), have a baby, Matt and I will celebrate our 10th anniversary, and I will turn 30. To name a few things. here we go.
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