Conviction

I love being a mom. It is the most rewarding, wonderful and challenging job I have ever done. I have decided that God gave me children to show me my sin in my life. =) It is like a pressure chamber that brings out all the bad very quickly. haha... Ok, so it isn't that bad but... I definitely feel like it has been this way this week. I lay down at night and think that I wish I could do over certain things throughout the day. This makes me very sad. I know that I cannot have everything now and that I won't do everything right. However I think I could use a "do over" button. The one thing that I hold on to is that God's mercies are new every morning.

"But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. The LORD is my portion, says my soul, therefore I will have hope in him."

Lamentations 3:21-24

I also love this in this version. 

"But this I recall and therefore have I hope and expectation:    It is because of the Lord's mercy and loving-kindness that we are not consumed, because His [tender] compassions fail not.
    They are new every morning; great and abundant is Your stability and faithfulness.
    The Lord is my portion or share, says my living being (my inner self); therefore will I hope in Him and wait expectantly for Him." 

(amplified version)

 

I have been convicted about all of this and most of all I have been convicted about my time I spend in His word. Or I should say lack there of. We have been going through a series at church about studying your Bible and it has been a great challenge for me. I realize blaringly where my priorities lie. I know it isn't in His word. This also saddens me. But... I choose to stand on his promises and learn how to each day pick them up and follow them to the fullest. I know I will fail and I will fall and I am glad for that because it is through these times that I learn the most. It is the growing pains that I feel that allow me to know it is working. =) so, today I am striving to be patient and loving and learn to allow the Spirit to work through me and not the flesh.