Wind, rain, is it December?
It has been windy, rainy, muddy and gross. I do not like this weather. It is hard for me not to get down when it is like this. Will can't go outside, the dogs track in the mud and it is just plain yucky. This has been my attitude.
I was thinking yesterday about it and how attitude really is a choice. It is funny how I really do choose to let it get to me. I was down and starting to feel sorry for myself when I got a phone call from a dear friend. I have been all over trying to officially decide what we are going to do for the birth and I just could never nail it down. There is a great birthing center here in Boise that I was just holding off going to. I love all the midwives there and I have gotten to know them over time. I think that they run a great practice and I would be honored to have them attend my birth, but... there was always something holding me back from committing. I have been doing prenatal care with the couple, Rose and Ian, that I worked with the last year so I have had care but they are leaving to move back to the Philippines in April. I am sad that I will miss them being here but I am very excited for their family. That is why I have been left with this choice. I want a home birth and the center does home births also. It really was a good choice.
I say was, because in that phone call yesterday I found out that my friend Dani, who moved to Hawaii this fall, is going to come over for my birth. I am so excited for this. We have been through a lot together and she knows me well. She is a very skilled midwife and I am lucky to have her come. Plus, she has her family here in town so she will be able to visit with them. I feel as if a huge weight is lifted off my shoulders and I know now why I hesitated for so long. God really blessed me yesterday and changed my perspective. Even when it is "yucky" He has great things planned for us. He knew my heart and my desire and allowed it all to work together so that I can have what I have always wanted. To birth my baby into this world in the environment I believe baby's should be born into. He overwhelms me. Matt and I are blessed and can't believe that time is speeding ahead. May is going to be hear before we know it. I just need to get through February. 2011 is going to be another big year for us. Baby and CPM (certified professional midwife) in one year. It makes me smile. Two thinks I really had let go of and now they are at my doorstep. All that I can say is, God is GOOD, ALL the time.
I was thinking yesterday about it and how attitude really is a choice. It is funny how I really do choose to let it get to me. I was down and starting to feel sorry for myself when I got a phone call from a dear friend. I have been all over trying to officially decide what we are going to do for the birth and I just could never nail it down. There is a great birthing center here in Boise that I was just holding off going to. I love all the midwives there and I have gotten to know them over time. I think that they run a great practice and I would be honored to have them attend my birth, but... there was always something holding me back from committing. I have been doing prenatal care with the couple, Rose and Ian, that I worked with the last year so I have had care but they are leaving to move back to the Philippines in April. I am sad that I will miss them being here but I am very excited for their family. That is why I have been left with this choice. I want a home birth and the center does home births also. It really was a good choice.
I say was, because in that phone call yesterday I found out that my friend Dani, who moved to Hawaii this fall, is going to come over for my birth. I am so excited for this. We have been through a lot together and she knows me well. She is a very skilled midwife and I am lucky to have her come. Plus, she has her family here in town so she will be able to visit with them. I feel as if a huge weight is lifted off my shoulders and I know now why I hesitated for so long. God really blessed me yesterday and changed my perspective. Even when it is "yucky" He has great things planned for us. He knew my heart and my desire and allowed it all to work together so that I can have what I have always wanted. To birth my baby into this world in the environment I believe baby's should be born into. He overwhelms me. Matt and I are blessed and can't believe that time is speeding ahead. May is going to be hear before we know it. I just need to get through February. 2011 is going to be another big year for us. Baby and CPM (certified professional midwife) in one year. It makes me smile. Two thinks I really had let go of and now they are at my doorstep. All that I can say is, God is GOOD, ALL the time.
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